You got me so wild, Why should I be so surprised? You got me so high, Don't you see it in my eyes?

I just.. ugh. I'm going crazy.

So in love that I can't let you go.
This is only the beginning of the breakdown...

I couldn't sleep at all last night.
I probably.. shut my eyes for like an hour.
But.. I stayed up. I stayed up crying.. d-mn.. this is pain. And it's like stuff here always f-cks with my emotions in real life... especially when i'm losing someone I love.
 
I kept shaking.. and it was cold. I don't know.. like as soon as I read-- f-ck.. .. I just.. ugh. I'm bawling right now I can't even type. My stomach dropped and began to hurt.. immediately tears just started to pour down my face and I couldn't speak at all. I couldn't find the words. I didn't want to say goodbye. I can't say goodbye...
 
It's too much. It's f-cking all too much.
 
I love him and.. I just don't want to part with him. I regret so many decisions. I regret it all. It's like.. damn..
 
I mean.. I remember meeting him. I remember how we just instantly clicked. I remember when he hesitated kissing me. I remember when.. he would just sit there and hold me when I was feeling down. When I felt guilty because of another situation similar to what is happening now. I remember when he promised he.. he wouldn't be like them...
 

I remember every f-cking thing..
 
Because.. I fell for this dude. And I fell hard.
If you could see my tears right now as i'm typing this.. if only..
I fell for him more than I've fallen for anyone else... I always said if he's gone then.. Kimmie's gone too. If he ever left.. it'd be the death of me.. but now it's kind of that time and I can't let him go because he just means the most to me..
 
Have you ever loved someone so much that everything that happened between them and your anon suddenly became more than that. It became you actually loving them?
 
Yeah. And that wasn't even supposed to happen.
 
I hate myself to much v.v I really do...
I hate the fact that I always try to run away instead of resolving stuff.. but it's kind of like.. I don't wanna be hurt. Kimmie is a strong a-ss m'f.. and the person behind her is too.. So.. I never want to ever be in a situation where everyone can see me cry and everyone.. knows that I do actually have a soft side. I run away from everything because.. Justin. @deletedbybye... F-ck I can't even type anymore..
 
I'll finish this in a few..... i'm feeling more than what I should be..

~Kimmie

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